An oldie, originally written for the inside of a handmade Halloween card sent to my then editor, the late A. Poulin, editor of BOA Editions, Ltd. He loved it and decided, at the last minute, to include it as the opening poem in my second book, What We Carry.
Midnight. The cats under the open window,
their guttural, territorial yowls.
Crouched in the neighbor's driveway with a broom,
I jab at them with the bristle end,
chasing their raised tails as they scramble
from bush to bush, intent on killing each other.
I shout and kick until they finally
give it up; one shimmies beneath the fence,
the other under a car. I stand in my underwear
in the trembling quiet, remembering my dream.
Something had been stolen from me, valueless
and irreplaceable. Grease and grass blades
were stuck to the bottoms of my feet.
I was shaking and sweating. I had wanted
to kill them. The moon was a white dinner plate
broken exactly in half. I saw myself as I was:
forty-one years old, standing on a slab
of cold concrete, a broom handle slipping
from my hands, my breasts bare, my hair
on end, afraid of what I might do next.
2016 Dorianne Laux
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